It seems so foolish to me that the reason I started WW was to "look better." I have learned so much more in these two years that "looking good" is near the end of my list of reasons why I'm still a member of WW. Weight watchers has taught me a lot about eating healthy and exercising, but I really needed to look inside myself and look to God for the real answers as to why I was overweight. Like I said in the previous post, I am addicted to food, or addicted to eating. Food is not the enemy, my enemy-the devil- just knows that food is an easy temptation for me. But over the past two years with lots of prayers, Bible studies, friends, triumphs and bumps, I am right on the edge of overcoming. I am a few pounds from my goal, which is fantastic, but is not my final goal. My non-scale goal is to be able to use food for what God made it for, not when I'm needing something other than nourishment.
I talked before that I was getting depressed that this journey has taken so long. I even calculated how much money we have spent on WW from my monthly dues. Let me tell you, it was enough to make me mad. A beautiful fellow WW has lost 80lbs in one year and was talking about how she was mad that it had taken so long. I held my tongue but inside I was raging. I was mad at God for letting it take so long. Two years was enough! If anything I just want to be able to have my $40 a month going toward something else...
Then while doing my devotions one morning I came across this passage from Habakkuk. Yes Habakkuk! I've been reading The Purpose Driven Life and the title for that day was, "There are no shortcuts to maturity." Thanks God, just what I wanted to read. But I kept reading and here is what I read from the tiny book of Habakkuk. "These things I plan won't happen right away. Slowly, steadily, surely, the time approaches when the vision will be fulfilled. If it seems slow, do not despair, for these things will surely come to pass. Just be patient. They will not be overdue a single day!" Habakkuk 2:3
Don't you love it when God throws a verse like that at you. Right when I was mad at God, he gave me this beautiful verse. It made me cry, and still gets to me how he timed that. My Father put me in his lap and reassured me that my success would not be overdue. I will be successful, and I can't do it without God.
So, here I sit, my goal in clear view, waiting patiently for God to get me there. Waiting...not just sitting around, as we are reminded many times in Scripture, but I have hope and can't wait to see how God will use this two year journey to impact others. Thanks for all who have encouraged me so far! I truly cherish every thought!